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Where This Takes Me

Let’s start writing and see where this takes me.

The reason I forced “the writing streak” for so long (over 600 consecutive days) was because I was so fearful that when I finally broke it that it would be darn near impossible to pick the habit back up again. After nearly 4 weeks it appears I was correct.

I’m not beating myself up though. I’ve needed a break. And it’s been nice. No late night grunting and turning over to grab my phone and writing some half $%#ed thing. I’ve noticed though that at the same time I’ve stopped reading most blog posts too. My heart just isn’t in it. I might scan through some posts on Medium or look at the pictures on some of the travel bloggers’ sites I follow but it’s difficult to concentrate on a blog — mine or someone else’s!

The past couple weeks I’ve been “planning” a lot for EVF. Planning. Writing schedules and outlines. It’s all wishful thinking though. It doesn’t happen unless you act. Unless you produce. Unless you create.

That’s where I need to turn to now. It doesn’t matter if I feel like I wasted time. No sense on dwelling on the past. Begin now and just bleeping create. Ship. Repeat. Which at the beginning was the point of this site anyway. Maybe I was onto something…

– Josh

A Weekend Without Social Media

“Instead of refreshing Twitter, Facebook and the like, how about let’s do something productive with the remaining 20 minutes left in the office for the day while this file export,” he questioned to himself while realizing the previous twenty minutes had been wasted in the black hole of the internet.

Over the weekend I tried to do take a break from social media. Friday night I decided that Saturday would be a day without any Twitter, Facebook or Snapchat. I even decided to limit email. I had work to do so I couldn’t completely cut it out. However I’m just as bad about refreshing email as I am with checking up on Twitter and the rest of the time wasters.

Saturday morning was rough. Anytime I got bored from the work I had to be doing or just in between tasks I caught myself automatically opening up Twitter. I would quickly catch myself and close out of the app. Before Noon I must have caught myself a dozen times — and that’s not an exaggeration.

While I wasn’t get the shakes or anything like that the withdrawal wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. At one point in the evening I found myself just a little bit bored which is a feeling I’m not used to. Instead of flipping open Twitter I did something that’s been bugging me for A YEAR. I changed the theme on this site and EVF. Then I went so far as to try to figure out how to put some ads up on EVF (something I’ve also been meaning to do for quite some time). The theme change not only un-boreded me (yeah, not a word I know) but it made me feel good. I felt accomplished. I felt proud. My websites had a fresh coat of paint on them.

I made it through Saturday so happy with my experiment that I decided Sunday would be a limited social media day. I wouldn’t not check it but I’d greatly limit my time spent. The result? Positive vibes.

I’m back on Twitter and the rest today. I didn’t miss out on anything. FOMO is for real but like most anxiety-producing things nothing bad ever happens. As for next weekend maybe I’ll try this experiment again…

Less Me

A thought I’ve had for EVF has been to remove a bit of how much “me” there is. I feel such a direct connection to EVF as a person. It’s my baby; it reflects itself to others as me. Or at least I believe that. So when I don’t like my website design or feel 1,000% confident in a post or product (which I never do) I feel uneasy. I feel uneasy because it equals me.

What if I could not let it equal me nearly so much?

I want to be “the cover model” for EVF. Sure. In a sense it’s the story of my trials and my learnings as a freelance video editor. But I also want it to just be it’s own thing. When you think of Lynda.com do you think of Lynda Weinman and Bruce Heavin? No. Maybe Lynda looks like Lynda.com’s logo. IDK. I’ve never met Lynda and will never.

With EVF I do want a more personal touch. However it doesn’t need to be about me anymore.

Maybe I’m just being a sensitive creative artist. Probably. But I need to find a way to break through all this resistance I’m facing anytime I want to create anything for EVF.

Less me.

– Josh

Sporadic Calming

There appears to be a ton of rust on my writing muscle. I’ve had this email drafted to myself open for the past 15 minutes. A cup of coffee, Snapping some friends, a handful of tweets and emailing my wife about something that’s the furthest thing from important I realized what I was doing. I turned on some Japanese rock and now I’m focused back on the present; on this writing.

The meditation app I use, Calm, keeps a calendar of when you meditate. If you meditate on a day the date will have a green circle around it. Something that has got away from me around the same time I took my brief break from writing here was meditation. Are they related? Probably.

It’s one of those things you do and 95% of the time it feels pointless. For me, I want to immediately go to sleep after (and I tend to take a 20-minute power nap which isn’t the worst thing). I guess that’s what happens when you meditate around 4:30pm. Anyway back to my point. 5% of the time I feel an immediate effect. I feel focused or more chill or calmed down. The rest of the time I’m like, “why did I just waste 10 minutes sitting uncomfortably on my couch?”

What I need to remind myself is that the benefits aren’t about those 10 minutes or the minutes that immediately follow. It’s about the practice of focusing back into the moment — like me a few minutes ago realizing I was not focusing on the task at hand, writing this post, then coming back into the moment and going from there. The last little green circle was on Monday. I’m 46ish hours removed from that meditation session. Did that particular session help me today? Not sure. But the recurring practice, even if it’s sporadic, helped. Because of it I got this writing in. And the benefit of that? Ha, well, I’m not sure of that either.

That’s it out of me today. Painters are coming tomorrow to paint some rooms. I have to finish up a video for a client then prep everything for the painters. It’s going to be a jam-packed evening.

– Josh

I’m Back!

Alright, let’s get this writing habit back in gear. I broke the consecutive day writing streak and took off the past 2-3 weeks. The streak was somewhere close to 500 days. But hey, who’s counting besides me? It’s time to get going again. Maybe create another streak or maybe just enjoy the heck out of writing again.

I don’t even remember where I left off and there’s a half dozen written posts I haven’t published. I’ll let those die in digital purgatory never to be seen by eyes again.

Two weekends ago my buddy and I took a road trip up to Toronto. The big stops were Buffalo, Guelph (where a friend lives), Toronto and Syracuse. I outlined a really long post with all the fine details in it already including axe throwing which is a thousand times cooler than it already sounds. If I ever get around to filling in that outline and publishing it is another question.

It felt good to travel. Darn good. That travel bug still has a hold of me. I’m 5+ months removed from my last big trip (Vietnam). I’m 2ish months removed from a small-medium sized trip (Spring Training & Disney). I was getting restless before this most recent trip. Being back is worse. The travel experience is fresh which only makes the bug bite stronger. I’ve spent half the day on Orbitz and Skyscanner searching for flights in October.

Sigh. Alright. Looks like I’m back. Whining about not being able to travel somewhere in my tiny corner of the Internet. I’ll take it though. Maybe I’ll be back tomorrow?

– Josh

Takin’ Care of Business

I’m not sure what I want to write about tonight so I’m just going to start. The Nats are in the 1st inning against the Braves. Pale Rider by Field Report is playing in the Chrome tab attached to the tab of this Google Doc.

Like I wrote about yesterday I’ve decided I want to take on a new project. I do not know what it’s going to be. Which is a good thing because I’m not starting on it yet. I want to start soon; but not yet. Light planning and some soul searching is fine. However I’m putting off doing the work.

How come? Well, with starting anything new you need to build it into your routine. At my present state, even with limiting the amount of time I spend on EVF and CmdEdit, I absolutely cannot take on anything new. Today I spent about an hour going through OmniFocus. I looked at each project in there. Looked at what I need to do for it, if I need to do it and when I need to do it by. And for the first time in awhile I feel remotely organized.

Now that I’m organized I have to actually follow-through with what I said I’m going to do. There’s still a gigantic list of to-dos on my plate. I have to take care of these first. Even if all of them aren’t “important” they’re there and they’re going to weigh me down mentally if I don’t get them done and I start diverting my attention to the new shiny toy (whatever this new project is).

These to-dos are things like finding a financial advisor, setting something up on my grandmother’s computer, returning something to Target, etc. Most of these things I’ve been pushing off for months. And in order to have any calmness of mind I need to get ‘em done first.

Okay. I think that’s all I have in me today.

– Josh

Interests

Tomorrow starts two days of working from home with just me and Peyt. Ph is out of town for a conference. How am I planning on spending my mini bachelor break? Well, I *may* make a new website.

I’ve been doing some soul searching about EVF. I want to keep it alive. But I don’t want to feel devoted to it all the time. I feel like I can comfortably commit to one hour a week to it. It doesn’t sound like a lot, and it isn’t. But it’ll keep it on life support while I pursue some interests that have more energy in them for me at the moment.

What’s the new project? Well, I don’t know. Seriously I have no clue. There’s hints of directions I’m leaning. But anything remotely specific? Nope. More on this in another post…

– Josh

The Gangrenous Finger

Dan Carlin on his Common Sense podcast has a saying he uses quite often. It goes something to the effect of the gangrenous finger will destroy the body if left untreated. Basically what he means is that if there’s a small but serious problem and one (or a country) continues to ignore it or let it run wild, it will eventually cause havoc and kill the host. The point I want to get at isn’t political. It’s rather quite trivial. My point is that I need new socks.

Yes, new socks.

I’m one of those kinds of people that’ll wear clothes until they are rags (or my wife makes me throw them away). I get good use out of my clothes. It’s something I take pride in. My “nice” work shoes I’ve had for over a decade. However I’ve let gangrene take over part of my wardrobe in the form of my socks and it’s causing problems.

Today me and a friend went for a walk. It was over 4 miles. Internally I’m fine. Feel great actually. No shin splints or anything. However my feet are destroyed!

When I went to Disney last month I blamed my new shoes. It had to be them, right? However I’m starting to think it wasn’t the shoes’ fault. I wore one of my better pairs of socks. A set of puma socks I’ve had for probably a year. They fit well and don’t slide. However I didn’t notice until today that they’re actually really thin in a lot of places along the bottom now. And the same with some other of my “good pairs”. Hmm. The gangrenous finger will destroy the body if left untreated.

With the remaining hour or so left in today I’ll be headed over to Amazon to purchase some new socks and take care of this issue. Didn’t think I’d be fighting gangrene today.

– Josh

Wanted: Fellow Beginner Vietnamese Language Learners

I’ve reached a point in my Vietnamese studies that I’m ready to start openingly talking about it (more so than merely writing on this site that I’m unsure if anyone will ever read). I’ve reached a point where I’m ready to start connecting with other beginner Vietnamese learners.

Why do I want to connect with other learners? Three reasons. First, share resources. There has to be plenty of resources out there that I don’t know about. I learned about Mango in some weird, freak way. I’m positive there are other resources out there like this that I don’t know about. And I’m positive I can share my experience with another learner with Mango and help him or her out.

Second, I want someone or someones to be able to talk about my struggles with learning Vietnamese with. It’s tough to go through this alone, like in most things. I’d usually use Coach.me for something like this but the Vietnamese habit in it has next to no users.

And third, accountability. I want someone who is also learning to keep me accountable. In return I’d do the same. It’s like my mastermind partner with EVF. She keeps me accountable and is someone I can bounce ideas off of in a judgement-free way and I’d love to have someone learning Vietnamese that I can think of similarly.

How will I do this? That’s for another post.

– Josh

Scrubbin’ the Weekend Away

Oh hey there, Sunday evening. We meet yet again. This day has flown by.

My sister and her clan left before Ph and I woke up this morning. We went out to our favorite weekend breakfast spot. I got my breakfast burrito with home fries and downed a cup and a half of coffee. That coffee got me going and after grocery shopping I went to town cleaning my house.

The next several hours I wiped, scrubbed, and decluttered our main level. And tackled a couple baskets of laundry. It felt darn good. I also squeezed in a Vietnamese lesson on Mango. Today’s lesson was tough. I had taken the last two days off so that might have contributed to it. However this lesson added close to ten new words. Most lessons add about five words. Is this a taste of what’s to come?!

The past few weeks I’ve been staring at this week on my calendar. It’s the week that things are supposed to finally calm down. No house guests. No crazy work projects. Nothing like how the past month or so has been. I’m even planning on publishing a new EVF post!

Alright. I think that’s it for this post. With a about two more hours left in my weekend I want to go chill out with my book.

– Josh